I Should Have Enjoyed The Moment

by R-Dent

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1.
Everyone's more rock n' roll than me Y'all are out double fisting 40's Got my sleeping mask on and my earplugs in The same old dog, the same old tricks Y'all can have the nightlife I just want to get to game night On auto-pilot I'm crying I'm always whining and sighing "woe is me" This time I'm changing/rearranging My existence is flipping from "I don't know" to "yes I know" I just want some good food I just want some sleep I want to change this old routine me My declaration of changes, it's time to finally face it Woe is me
2.
I'm done giving chase Gonna slow down my pace for once Enjoy all the scenery I rushed by I didn't slow down I lied to myself And who'd believe it? Yeah I'd believe it Why's it gotta be everything? Why's it gotta be nothing? Yeah I wanna learn Yeah I'm gonna learn how to moderate So took a break in September '18 and I lasted all of two weeks Call it progress, call it something I never know what I'm doing Why's it gotta be everything? Why's it gotta be nothing? Yeah I wanna learn Yeah I'm gonna learn how to moderate "Addicted to pressure?" "That's the stupidest thing I've heard" That's all I've ever heard
3.
I'm too nervous to talk About anything, including my thoughts And I know it's that bad Is it really that bad? Is it really that bad? Are you really that sad? Is it really that bad? I'm sorry dad, I get nervous every time that I call I'm sorry brother, cause I never call I'm sorry mother, I promise to visit you soon When I'm over these blues I don't think it's right to cop out and say "that's life" Come on man, it's our life Is it really that bad? Why you leaving so fast? Do you think it's gonna last? Is it really that bad? I'm sorry dad, I get nervous every time that I call I'm sorry brother, cause I never call I'm sorry mother, I promise to visit you soon When I'm over these blues
4.
Four words I'd love to hear from you "I'm proud of you" A martyr for honor if only we stay true I want to believe that it's true That good effort is rewarded for all of our paid dues I hope it's true No this wasn't our year and it won't be next year And I'll say it when no one else will say it And you'll hear it when you need to hear it I'm proud of you
5.
Routine Me 03:45
Well the arts have been failing me Or maybe I'm the one who's failing Lately I don't know what I love But I always know who I love That's enough of complaining about generic crap About hating life Insert clever comment here That's enough, yeah that's enough I guess we're too weird for the punks Or too punk for the weirdos I sold tickets, I spread flyers Does any of this have any worth? I'm scared you'll fall to the drink That's not the only thing.... I talk of change, yet I remain the same That's enough of complaining about generic crap About hating life Insert clever comment here That's enough, yeah that's enough (I ain't got no money) That's enough of complaining about generic crap About hating life (That's okay I'll find a way to pay the rent.) Insert clever comment here That's enough, yeah that's enough
6.
We're not convenient and I now I see it And I'll see myself out too And when I'm serious no one believes it And I believe that I'm through It's consume or feed I wanna be in between Remind myself my thoughts are temporary like me It's time for some self-care When will I get there? Tell me I'll get there It's been 24 years and I"m still trying to get there This time I'm gonna get there It's consume or feed I wanna be in between This time I swear I'll take good care of me This time things will be different This time I know I've said this at least 24 times It's consume or feed I wanna be in between This time I'll make sure i'm priority
7.
Who you gonna call when things get scary? It's me, your friends, and family. We can feel it coming back again Are you ready? We can beat this. Every time the depression comes back, we'll just follow the plan Come on, we can beat this When getting out of the bed is the hardest part I know that's a rough start Come on, we can conquer this No one calls or checks in Sometimes people forget I promise I'll never forget Are you ready? It's coming again. Every time the depression comes back, we'll just follow the plan Come on, we can beat this When getting out of the bed is the hardest part I know that's a rough start Come on, we can conquer this Sometimes you don't want help I'll still give you all of my help I know it must be hard so trying beat this by your self You got this Every time the depression comes back, we'll just follow the plan Come on, we can beat this When getting out of the bed is the hardest part I know that's a rough start Come on, we can conquer this
8.
I've lost the joy from the things I used to love I'm sick of the grind I've been ground to dust Am I out of my prime? Did I miss the best parts of my life? Well hey, tell me I can beat these hopeless negative days Tell me I can get back to those positive ways I'm begging for just a speck of inner peace Even if it's at the cost of admitting defeat I forgot what my life meant outside of this Now I sound so dramatic Was I too genuine? Was I a little too honest? Well hey, tell me I can beat these hopeless negative days Tell me I can get back to those positive ways I'm begging for just a speck of inner peace Even if it's at the cost of admitting defeat I'm too scared to let this chapter end So what if I am? Just let me face it I'm too scared to let this chapter end I'll cherish those times Until the very end I was supposed to rest just for a couple of weeks But instead I lost all of 2019
9.
Used to always lend a hand Now they're stuck in my pockets How did it get like this? And honestly, I gave this everything There's gotta be more than one thing that makes us happy It's not the timing It's just reality It's not meant to be And honestly, I gave this everything There's gotta be more than one thing that makes us happy Sick of always being the doormat I wanna be the one that does the stepping And honestly, I gave this everything There's gotta be more than one thing that makes us happy
10.
Remember when we had it? Remember when we had direction? I think I lost it What's your five-year plan Tell me what's your biggest weakness? I work too hard I care too much And it seems that's never enough I was willing to die for this And I should have enjoyed the moment But I was too busy thinking ahead And I should have enjoyed the moment Wait! No one's got it figured out. Is that comforting? Wait! I think my life is figured out... I work too hard I care too much And it seems that's never enough I don't wanna die for this And I should have enjoyed the moment But I was too busy thinking ahead And I should I have enjoyed the moment I should have enjoyed the moment I should have enjoyed the moment I work too hard, I care too much I could enjoy this moment I could enjoy this moment But when would I start? Tell me when to start

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releases December 31, 2021

Produced and engineered by Jon Markson and Alex Salter.
Recorded at Found Soundation and Savaria Studios.
Mastered by Jason Livermore
Album artwork by Marie Kattner

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Singy/Yelly/Shreddy Punk band from Jacksonville, FL.

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